perfectandbeautiful

talk to me please i am a sad and lonely girl   paige, 19. 5'9, 110lb. i do not promote eds. i just need a place to vent. i hate myself for what i'm doing and i hate myself for wanting this. WARNING: POSTS MAY BE TRIGGERING. FOLLOW AT OWN RISK.

day 1: 500 cals

intake

breakfast: cereal with yoghurt (30)

lunch: 1 cookie (70)

dinner: sweet chilli plum chicken with hokkien noodles and veggies (300ish)

subtotal: 400

burnt: 170

total calories: 230

first off, HELLO NEW FOLLOWERS! i don’t know where you’re coming from or why you want to follow me (pro tip: im a total loser) but i’m glad you’re here and i hope you stay! PLEASE LOVE ME.

i’m going to admit, i was a little worried about today. i calculated the calories of the entire dinner i was making, and per serving, it was going to be between 500 and 600 calories. thankfully, when i bought the noodles, i found they were far less calories than the internet told me (calorieking you are FILTHY LIARS) and i was even able to halve the amount the recipe suggested and supplement it with veg, to bring the total for a serving down to around 300. actually pretty proud of myself for that one.

i’m doing okay today. i didn’t have any weaknesses; i was controlled. the cookie was a minor abberation; i’d been baking with my roomie and had to eat one for appearance’s sake. must appear normal. i could spare 70 calories to appear normal.

otherwise, i’ve got through the day with coffee, green tea, fruity-flavoured gum, diet coke, and sugarfree hot chocolate (made with water). got some new diet jelly today, am excited about that.

today was a very, very good day.

— 3 hours ago
#progress  #abc diet 
… i’ve never thought about this before but oh dear it’s true

… i’ve never thought about this before but oh dear it’s true

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