I just read through the borderline scorpion tumblr and cried. I’ve suspected that I might be borderline for a very long time, but finally seeing people put the illness and the way it makes them feel into their own words really makes it hit home. My first real therapist wouldn’t diagnose me because she didn’t like labels. I’ve been told it’s just dysthymia and generalized anxiety. I’ve been told that I have “mild bi-polar.” And most recently, I’ve been told my problems are just because I have sleep apnea.

I just want an accurate diagnosis so I can figure this shit out and get on with being awesome! Although I feel like I have been depressed all my life, I have been struggling—HARD—for the last 10 years and everything has failed me. Doctors, therapists, medicines, our healthcare system, my own efforts… Maybe I do want to kill myself, maybe I don’t. But in the meantime I want to live a more highly-functional life. I’m an amazing person with a lot of potential who just keeps getting passed over and swept under the rug unfairly.

  1. aprilmarches said: I am semi-diagnosed as pretty low on the borderline spectrum and would be totally willing to talk to you about shit if you want.
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