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reasonstobe-thin: i hate lying on my side because i can feel my stomach fat pulling me over onto my...

Sun, 19 May 2013 07:04:03 +1000

reasonstobe-thin:

i hate lying on my side because i can feel my stomach fat pulling me over onto my front

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Sun, 19 May 2013 06:36:04 +1000

day 2, morning

Sun, 19 May 2013 06:24:08 +1000

weight: 48.9kg

which is obviously a trick of the scales. obviously i haven’t lost 2kg in a day. i’ve been keeping my fluid intake up but i’ll drink more today just in case.

actually, it might be something else. after i weighed myself yesterday i did this insane twosie, then like, another one half an hour later. i’ve been having some pretty weird eating habits over the last few days so it’s possible my original 50.9kg was just a trick of the twosie. ha ha.

i don’t know. my lowest weight is 48.6kg. i will get lower.

thing is that my weight is fluctuating so much i’m not sure what to expect tomorrow.

my calorie allowance for today is 500 calories. what i’ve said i’ll make for dinner tonight is around 400 - that leaves 100 for the rest of the day. that’s doable. i can do that.

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Sun, 19 May 2013 06:07:32 +1000

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Sat, 18 May 2013 19:46:25 +1000

day 1: 500 cals

Sat, 18 May 2013 19:37:27 +1000

intake

breakfast: cereal with yoghurt (30)

lunch: 1 cookie (70)

dinner: sweet chilli plum chicken with hokkien noodles and veggies (300ish)

subtotal: 400

burnt: 170

total calories: 230

first off, HELLO NEW FOLLOWERS! i don’t know where you’re coming from or why you want to follow me (pro tip: im a total loser) but i’m glad you’re here and i hope you stay! PLEASE LOVE ME.

i’m going to admit, i was a little worried about today. i calculated the calories of the entire dinner i was making, and per serving, it was going to be between 500 and 600 calories. thankfully, when i bought the noodles, i found they were far less calories than the internet told me (calorieking you are FILTHY LIARS) and i was even able to halve the amount the recipe suggested and supplement it with veg, to bring the total for a serving down to around 300. actually pretty proud of myself for that one.

i’m doing okay today. i didn’t have any weaknesses; i was controlled. the cookie was a minor abberation; i’d been baking with my roomie and had to eat one for appearance’s sake. must appear normal. i could spare 70 calories to appear normal.

otherwise, i’ve got through the day with coffee, green tea, fruity-flavoured gum, diet coke, and sugarfree hot chocolate (made with water). got some new diet jelly today, am excited about that.

today was a very, very good day.

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Sat, 18 May 2013 15:32:24 +1000

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Sat, 18 May 2013 13:39:30 +1000

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Sat, 18 May 2013 13:10:59 +1000

it will never happen

Sat, 18 May 2013 12:42:56 +1000

it will never happen

… i’ve never thought about this before but oh dear...

Sat, 18 May 2013 12:14:33 +1000

… i’ve never thought about this before but oh dear it’s true

67436) This hate is too much.

Sat, 18 May 2013 11:46:24 +1000

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Sat, 18 May 2013 11:17:58 +1000

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Sat, 18 May 2013 10:49:56 +1000

oh dear, if i go off anon, can we do private messages?

Sat, 18 May 2013 10:24:15 +1000

of course! i always reply privately off anon

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Sat, 18 May 2013 10:21:55 +1000

i know what that's like. i annoy myself too. it's easy to run away as an anon... untraceable. but if i go off anon, you will know how pathetic and disgusting i am. how low self esteem i have. how fat i am.

Sat, 18 May 2013 10:19:33 +1000

awh i won’t think those things about you. i think that about myself too so maybe we are the same? i am sure you are 400% more wonderful and beautiful than you think you are anyway.

friend! friend! friend! remember that losers have to hang together. :P i'm not used to making friends so easily. and when people get too close, i get scared. i don't want them to see the real me. that's why i run away from them. trying to change that tho. when i run away, will you tell me to stay?

Sat, 18 May 2013 09:58:55 +1000

yeah im not good at having friends… i think im annoying and people tend to not like me very much. and i mean i can kind of see where they’re coming from, sometimes when i talk im like omg shutup AT MYSELF

its hard for an anonymous person to run away! i dont even know who you are o______________________o

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Sat, 18 May 2013 09:53:22 +1000